I am Tired

of crying.
of hurting.
of holding on to hope.
of being alone.
of sleeping alone.
of getting let down.
of being lonely.
of being defeated.

I'm Baaaccckkk!

*Knock, Knock. This thing still work?*

I feel like I've been long gone. Long gone for so long.
I love weekends. But only the ones when I don't have to do anything.
This weekend wasn't even in the same ball game. All I did was work. Work work work work work. (The only reprieve I get is bottle feeding the babies. There are five bottle babies now and I love them all.)
Because I'm such a nice wife, I help Ryan during calving. He night calves, as in stay up all night to check cows and sleep all day. So this weekend I stayed up all night and slept all day.
Have you ever done that? Talk about mess with your inner calendar/ time thingy.

Right now I'm at work, and my brain thinks it's time to be sleeping. Last night, I stayed home to sleep. Well once 11:00 hit, my body and brain were like "I'm Up! Let's Party! Or let's clean the house, do the dishes, move the new freezer, clean the laundry room, do some laundry, clean the kitchen and take the trash out."

I can't wait until calving is over. There are 300 plus calves on the ground, we are almost almost half way there. I can't wait.

On another note, have you seen this? It's scary.

Thought you might find this interesting.
I found this interesting and wanted to pass it along.Recently someone had to have their 5-year old German Shepherd dog put down due to liver failure. The dog was completely healthy until a few weeks ago, so they had a necropsy done to see what the cause was. The liver levels were unbelievable, as if the dog had ingested poison of some kind. The dog is kept inside, and when he's outside, someones with him, so the idea of him getting into something unknown was hard to believe.My neighbor started going through all the items in the house. When he got to the Swiffer Wetjet, he noticed, in very tiny print, a warning which stated 'may be harmful to small children and animals.' He called the company to ask what the contents of the cleaning agent are and was astounded to find out that antifreeze is one of the ingredients (actually, he was told it's a compound which is one molecule away from antifreeze). Therefore, just by the dog walking on the floor cleaned with the solution, then licking its own paws, it ingested enough of the solution to destroy its liver.Soon after his dog's death, his housekeepers' two cats also died of liver failure. They both used the Swiffer Wetjet for quick cleanups on their floors. Necropsies weren't done on the cats, so they couldn't file a lawsuit, but he asked that we spread the word to as many people as possible so they don't lose their animals.This is equally harmful to babies and small children that play on the floor a lot and put their fingers in their mouths a lot.PLEASE, EVEN IF YOU DO NOT HAVE BABIES, SMALL CHILDREN OR OWN A PET; PLEASE FORWARD THIS ON! YOU MAY NOT HAVE ANY CHILDREN OR PETS BUT SOME OF YOU HAVE FRIENDS OR FAMILY WITH PETS AND ALSO FAMILIES WITH GRANDCHILDREN AND GREAT GRANDCHILDREN.

I think I need a nap

My Head Hurts.
Hurts so bad my vision is a little blurry.
So blurry, I can't see really bright colors.

Bright colors are making my head hurt more.

I'm thirsty, I wish I could drink my water straight from the sink.
I can't though, so it must be Brita filtered.
Water bottles are expensive, and I can't be bothered to pour my filtered water and put it in the fridge so it's cold.

So I do the only logical thing, drink Milk from the gallon.
Or I grab a pop, cause it's so easy and fast and just right there.

I hate pop.
It gives me Migraines if I drink to much.

I don't know what to make for Dinner.
Cereal?
Ramen Noodles?

I don't know, I can't be bothered with these thoughts, my head hurts too much.

update quickie

The roast I made the other night was GOOD, took longer then I thought to cook. But it was good. I also made killer mashed potatoes and gravy to accompany it. I didn't want my roast, the beautiful roast to be lonely.

Wednesday night, I hit a dog ( I know my thought was... "Merry Christmas, and I ran over your dog. Okay gotta go!"). The dog had a really bad habit of chasing cars. I felt really bad, but fortunately I was driving really slow cause our road is really bumpy so all the dog suffered was a broken leg. The owner is getting the dog fixed. Hopefully his car chasing days are over cause he's a pretty expensive pup now.

Yesterday I had to take a buffalo to town. I looked really classy with a dead buffalo in the back of my truck. And the thing that cracked me up was my tail gate was down and the image people who were driving behind me was the dead buffalo's butt.... well actually a big hole, because it had been cleaned and gutted. So they saw the empty cavity of the belly and gaping hole where poop used to come out. (I laughed a lot at the faces I saw in my rear view mirror)

Last night I couldn't fall asleep. I don't know why though because I was tired, really tired. But finally around 1:00 sleep finally came.

This morning I was tired.

I'm still tired.

We are going to be sending out our Christmas cards soon. Hopefully by Monday.

I have a basketball tournament to coach on Sunday.

I need to water my chickens when I get home. (Yeah I have chickens, wanna make something of it??)

I'm going to try my hardest to make some cookies tonight. I've been wanting to try a new recipe all week.

Thank goodness it's Friday!!
Have a good weekend!

Excuse me this is an inconvenience.

Have you ever felt that everything is such an Inconvenience.

Okay, okay I know that sounds bad. But hear me out.... well actually read me out.

Imagine you are tired, and it's such an inconvenience to roll over and hit snooze... 5 times.
When you have to eventually get out of bed, it's just so inconvenient to throw the covers off and roll out of bed.

Then you have to walk to the kitchen poor your coffee and be forced to hold the cup, can we say it together "inconvenience"

Maybe I just need to get some sleep.

It's not my fault though, the NFR is on, and they think that everyone stays up late.
They don't even show it on TV until 10:00 and it ends around midnight.

What an inconvenience huh?

Maybe I should write a letter, or just DVR it and watch it the night before. Sometimes I forget we have that little slice of technology heaven.

Well go forth and enjoy your day! And try not to be bothered by any inconveniences.

Wiped Out!

Ugh, have you ever been mentally and physically exhausted? Yeah I'm there.

And the thought of Christmas shopping, decorating, baking doesn't help. Makes me want to hide under the covers.

I just can't seem to kick the feeling of being tired.