I think I need a nap

My Head Hurts.
Hurts so bad my vision is a little blurry.
So blurry, I can't see really bright colors.

Bright colors are making my head hurt more.

I'm thirsty, I wish I could drink my water straight from the sink.
I can't though, so it must be Brita filtered.
Water bottles are expensive, and I can't be bothered to pour my filtered water and put it in the fridge so it's cold.

So I do the only logical thing, drink Milk from the gallon.
Or I grab a pop, cause it's so easy and fast and just right there.

I hate pop.
It gives me Migraines if I drink to much.

I don't know what to make for Dinner.
Cereal?
Ramen Noodles?

I don't know, I can't be bothered with these thoughts, my head hurts too much.

Have I got a story for you

First off, I hope everyone had a wonderful, warm Christmas!
I had a hard time getting into the Christmas spirit, you just can't smile when things fall apart...

Okay, now take lunch and enjoy my story. Oh and before I start, I would like to say that the following event is true. I can't make this stuff up.

Monday December 22, 2008
I had a Chiropractor appointment much like I do every Monday.
So I head in to town for my appointment. Things are good and I'm in and out. I dash to the grocery store to get a couple things.
Now I'm heading out of town, enjoying a bagel on my way to work.
Then Bam it happens, out of now where, I mean I didn't see it coming.
What, WHAT? you ask.
Well my friends I hit a deer. (Hey we live in MT it happens)
To be exact I hit a buck, a mule deer buck.
I was in the middle of town when I hit the SOB deer.
I wasn't driving fast, obviously because the SOB deer, ran off. There was no blood, no broken bones. The only piece of the SOB deer I had were 6 strands of hair/ fur.
Oh but don't forget my parting gift.
Broken grill guard
Broken Head light
Dented Fender
The list goes on. In fact it goes on so far my cost to fix my truck (which by the way is still a baby she's only 3 months old) is 3200.00 dollars.
Thank GOD I have insurance.

But I'm getting ahead of myself.
After I hit the SOB deer, I'm in shock, I can't believe it. Is this really happening?
I pull onto some street in town, and blindly pull into some parking lot that isn't marked. Hey maybe I'll get robbed too.
I get out and assess the damage.
Kindly the lady behind me who was witness to everything got out as well to ask if I was okay.
That's when I start to cry. I say I'm fine, this sucks and some other choice words. Thank the lady and off she goes. (I don't even ask her name, birthday, licence plate, ideal date, nothing.)

I do what anyone would do.
I call my Husband, he doesn't answer.
I call my Mom and cry. The only thing I was thinking is "What else can happen?" This is a bad nightmare, I've had nothing but bad luck for 3 months now....
"I don't have the money for this!" "I just bought this truck, just bought the insurance"
"Mom, what do I do?" "Mom, why does this keep happening?"
My Mom asks me, "Where are you?"
I say, "I don't know, in town somewhere"

She told me to call the Sheriff so I can report it so I can then turn it into my insurance.
I call the Sheriff and give them horrible directions to where I am. "Um, I'm by the vet across the street from the tractor store"
Needless to say, she wanted to laugh at me, I know she did. But nicely asked if there were any signs around me. There was thankfully. So she was sending someone on their way.

I sit in this parking lot for half an hour, it starts to snow. I just got a hold of Ryan when the Sheriff pulled up.
I get all my info and into his van we go to do paperwork!
That is all finished, I ask him what I should do. He said go to the shop and get it checked out!
So I call Ryan back, fill him in. And he said he will come get me. In the mean time, I call my insurance and give them all the info re: my SOB deer parting gift. (Stupid deer, I wish I could run him over again, I guaran damn tee he would not RUN away and there would be blood lots of blood) ANYWAYS
1 hour later Ryan gets there. The roads suck, it's cold and I feel like life is out to get me.... no seriously.
On the way to the body shop I pass a cop car, what does the cop car do? He rubber necks my truck and flips a U-y. HA, great!

So I get pulled over.
He asks if I'm aware of my Headlight. Me.... uh YEAH. I hit a deer this morning, about oh an hour ago and I'm on my way to the body shop.
Oh really? Licence and registration please.

Sure why not. Do you want my finger prints too, maybe a DNA test.
I'm still thinking "Anything else we can fit into today?"

So he checks things out and weirdly my story pans out. He apologizes about the damages and sends me on my way.

Finally we get to the shop. They look at my truck, take pictures and give me the estimate.

3200.00 dollars.
WHAT? I didn't even kill the deer. I want to, but I didn't.
I thought Ryan would fall over from heart failure.
Thankfully I have insurance, thank you GOD.

The insurance approved the estimate, and sent a check. I just have to pay the deductible.
Tomorrow hopefully I will be able to go pick up my truck. Hopefully it's like new again.
My next investment will be a grill guard with spikes sticking out the front so anything dares to run in front of me again, it'll practically be suicide by impalement!
I can laugh now, but then I was so upset and mad and Mad and upset.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Years!

Oh Man

So if you know me well, you know that I'm not connected to the wonderful world of Internet at home.
So this post is coming to you from work.
If you read my post yesterday, you know this isn't good.

If you didn't read it, I wanted today off so I could run some errands.
The fact that I'm here is poopy, I was denied my day off.

Oh well that's the way the cookie crumbles sometimes.
At least I will get more of the green on pay day.
I hate money.
But I love it.
But I hate it so much.
But still I love it.
No, no I hate it.

It can't buy you happiness but if you don't have a lot of it, you are often stressed out and unhappy. It's a cycle, a really bad cycle.
Just thinking about it is tiring. Makes me want to pack my bags and run away.
There is one good thing about today.... all you 8-5 er's M-F say it with me. Thank God it's Friday!

What are your plans for the weekend?
I was going to go grocery shopping today so I could make Christmas Cookies and 25 different types of Molasses Cookies all weekend, for 2 days straight....
But my plans have changed. (I really hate when that happens)

Now I don't know what I'm doing. I feel lost, confused, wondering if I can ever get back on track, hopeless.

Okay okay, I'll stop being so dramatic, it's not really in my genetic makeup.... I don't think anyways. (DON'T ANSWER THAT)
Well one thing is for sure, I'll be enjoying lots of hot chocolate. Why? Cause the weather outside is really frightful! Hey... isn't that a song?

Fruit loops

I'm cranky today.
And there is now way around it.

Have you ever just been fed up with it.
It = everything

work
money
food
cooking
pets
work
work

Yeah I'm there.

I'm going to take tomorrow off, cause I need too. I have other crap I need to do and I can't get it done because I'm always at work.
I can't do it Saturday because I have a basketball tournament.
Besides the banks aren't open on Saturday's... Why?
Well some banks are, but most aren't. That is stupid.

I'm hungry too. Anyone have any cereal?
When I'm really hungry I always crave Fruit Loops and I usually HATE fruit loops.
Why do I do that?

Um so when do I get off for Christmas? The 23rd? Yep sounds good to me! I wonder if I will get a Christmas bonus? Probably not, but it would be nice.

Can you tell I'm cranky?

It's not my fault I'm hungry.

Hungry people really can't be held responsible for what they do or say.

Christmas Time = Baking & weight gain!

Forgive me for yesterday. Will you please? If it was you in my spot I'm sure you would have complained about your darn tire too.

I got the tired fixed and all is right once again.
Now back to the regular scheduled programing.
But I don't really have a schedule... oh nevermind.

Molasses, Moalazzes, Muhlesses
You ever do that with a word? Oh, I know you do don't lie.

Anyways, the other day I was having a craving for something sweet and well I went overboard.

I made chocolate chip cookies and rice crispie treats. Crispy, Crispee, Chrispee.
They were delish, wanna know how I know. They were gone the next day. Ryan had a healthy breakfast of coffee and rise chrispee treats!

The chocolate chip cookies didn't stand a chance either.

Now, I'm on a mission to try out 3 different Molasses cookies recipes. Yes 3.
It's okay Molasses is okay in moderation right? RIGHT?
Well I will report back to you and let you know how it goes.
Also once I get the family recipe from my Mom I will be making the best sugar cookies EVA. NO SERIOUSLY they are awesome. They could save the world.

Sadly I won't share that recipe, it's a family secret. So that means I will make them and rub it in your face at how wonderful they are.
Then you'll laugh and call me fat cause I've been eating too many treats.
Then I'll go home and cry and eat some more.
Then I go to counseling and be miserable.
And it will all be your fault for laughing at me and calling me fat.
All over sugar cookies.

See I told you they are powerful.

What gives?

Seriously? This is not happening!

First off I'm freezing, my office is a... are you ready for this? We are a whopping 41 degrees in here.
Then to top it off, when I got to work I heard that amazing hissing sound from my tire. Yep you guessed it, I have a gaping hole in my tire and it's rapidly going flat.

COOL.

But wait folks, that's not all.
There is no one here, so little ol' me is outside looking at my damn tire. Staring at it willing it to just fix it's self.
Then because my day can't get any worse, it starts to snow....

My fingers? What are those? Are those the deadly white things that I'm jabbing at the key board right now? But I couldn't really tell you cause I lost feeling in them about an hour ago. I'm hoping they'll just fall off and new ones will grow back.

I'm pissed about my tire.
I'm pissed about being cold AGAIN.
I'm pissed about my tire, did I already say that? Well I'm really mad so I can say it twice.

I'm pissed I had to spend more money that I really don't have to fix a tire on a truck that I just bought. I mean seriously this is like some sick joke from hell. The past several months have by definition sucked. And now I'm pissed about it.

Merry Christmas folks, I'm putting my Santa hat away for today and I'm officially Scrooge if just for a day.

update quickie

The roast I made the other night was GOOD, took longer then I thought to cook. But it was good. I also made killer mashed potatoes and gravy to accompany it. I didn't want my roast, the beautiful roast to be lonely.

Wednesday night, I hit a dog ( I know my thought was... "Merry Christmas, and I ran over your dog. Okay gotta go!"). The dog had a really bad habit of chasing cars. I felt really bad, but fortunately I was driving really slow cause our road is really bumpy so all the dog suffered was a broken leg. The owner is getting the dog fixed. Hopefully his car chasing days are over cause he's a pretty expensive pup now.

Yesterday I had to take a buffalo to town. I looked really classy with a dead buffalo in the back of my truck. And the thing that cracked me up was my tail gate was down and the image people who were driving behind me was the dead buffalo's butt.... well actually a big hole, because it had been cleaned and gutted. So they saw the empty cavity of the belly and gaping hole where poop used to come out. (I laughed a lot at the faces I saw in my rear view mirror)

Last night I couldn't fall asleep. I don't know why though because I was tired, really tired. But finally around 1:00 sleep finally came.

This morning I was tired.

I'm still tired.

We are going to be sending out our Christmas cards soon. Hopefully by Monday.

I have a basketball tournament to coach on Sunday.

I need to water my chickens when I get home. (Yeah I have chickens, wanna make something of it??)

I'm going to try my hardest to make some cookies tonight. I've been wanting to try a new recipe all week.

Thank goodness it's Friday!!
Have a good weekend!

Beans and Cornbread

So as I promised here is the wonderfully easy recipe of Beans and Cornbread from the wonderful website The Pioneer Woman. Go check it out, you'll never be the same!
I was surprised how easy it was to make this, and Ryan seemed to like it. I mean he at it all, cause Beans aren't really my thing due to my picky taste bud syndrome!

*disclaimer, I used my own corn bread recipe, cause I have a really good one that my neighbor gave me when I was in 4-H and I got a purple ribbon on it! So my recipe has been tried and tested and it's awesome!* Now back to the scheduled programming.

The much anticipated recipe.

Beans and Cornbread

Bean Ingredients:

4 cups Dried Pinto Beans
1 pkg Thick Sliced Bacon
1 tsp. salt
2 tsp. pepper

P.W. Cornbread Ingredients:

1 cup Yellow Corn Meal
1/2 cup Flour
1 tsp. salt
1 cup Buttermilk
1/2 cup Milk
1 egg
1 tablespoon baking powder
1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/4 cup + 2 tablespoons Shortening


Beans:
Rinse beans in cold water with a strainer, be sure to pick out any foreign materials. Throw beans in a pot and cover with water by 2-3 inches. Slice your bacon into 1 inch pieces and add to the pot. Bring to a boil & then cover and reduce heat to a simmer for about 2 hours.
Season with salt and pepper. Make sure to taste this concoction and add seasoning as you please or don't please.

P.W. Cornbread:
In a bowl add:
Cornmeal, Flour and Salt. Stir together.
Next combine & add:
Buttermilk, egg and baking powder & soda. Stir together until frothy and add to the flour bowl.
Then melt the 1/4 cup of shortening in a microwave save dish & add to bowl, stirring constantly until combined.

Cover your pan with the 2 tablespoons of shortening and bake at 450 degrees for 20-25 minutes.

There you have it folks, a fast and easy way to satisfy any Men folk, or people who just like Beans and Cornbread in general.

Tonight I will try a different spin on a Roast, I'll report how it goes.

Thank you and goodnight.

Excuse me this is an inconvenience.

Have you ever felt that everything is such an Inconvenience.

Okay, okay I know that sounds bad. But hear me out.... well actually read me out.

Imagine you are tired, and it's such an inconvenience to roll over and hit snooze... 5 times.
When you have to eventually get out of bed, it's just so inconvenient to throw the covers off and roll out of bed.

Then you have to walk to the kitchen poor your coffee and be forced to hold the cup, can we say it together "inconvenience"

Maybe I just need to get some sleep.

It's not my fault though, the NFR is on, and they think that everyone stays up late.
They don't even show it on TV until 10:00 and it ends around midnight.

What an inconvenience huh?

Maybe I should write a letter, or just DVR it and watch it the night before. Sometimes I forget we have that little slice of technology heaven.

Well go forth and enjoy your day! And try not to be bothered by any inconveniences.

Right on Schedule

For once I have finished Christmas shopping before Christmas Eve.
(I'm usually the one who is getting last minute gifts at... well the last minute)

But I'm here to report that for once in my life I have finished ALL of my Christmas shopping long before Christmas Eve!

Of course now I'm broke, but that's another story for another time.

So here's to us Non-procrastinators! I do believe I will celebrate with wine tonight. (I hope that is what non-procrastinators do, I'm new to this club and I don't know the rules)

Please. Just Humor Me.

Okay seriously I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. I'm sitting at my desk crying.I'm a loser and I need to find myself a life! But just read it and see if you can keep from laughing! Enjoy!

Dear Dawn,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but Our affair is over. I think I realized it When I quoted Forest Gump In your car and I saw you Sitting on The Montreal Canadians goalie. I'm sure you're Middle-class enough to understand That I may pee my pants. I'm returning Your love letters to me to you, but I'll keep The oil tank from your car as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about the moose poaching and Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird.

You should get that embarrassing rash checked,
Christine



Pick a friend, any friend.
Answer the following questions and fill in the answers into the fun paragraph below.
Then repost it.Have fun!!

Dear _______,
I don't really know how to tell you this, ___1____. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ and ___11___.

_____12_____,




1.What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'm joining the Convent
Black - I dislike your eyelashes
Green - Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other - I'm in love with your cat


2.Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February - Last year when you peed your pants
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on the little dog
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When you smacked my ass
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
October - When I quoted Forest Gump
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3.Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Christien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light


4.What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put whipped cream on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sitting on
Other - Drive over


5.What's the color of your underwear?
Green - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey - The Catholic Priest
Black - Your My Little Pony collection
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red - My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink - The Montreal Canadian's goalie
None - My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other - The elephant in the corner

6.What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C- Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Sly
Simpsons - cowardly
Grey's Anatomy - Scarred
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat - Ashamed

7.Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Confused- That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed - That were related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Bored- That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumbass
Other - That your driving sucks

8.What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White -Your Back Street Boys blanket
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - Your Elton John poster
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from Vegas
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your toe ring
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your car

9.The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it
C/D - The oil tank from your car
E/F - Your neighbor's dog
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of that blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your love letters
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - Your glass eye
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10.The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
C/D - Mocked you constantly behind your back
E/F - Always wanted to break your legs
G/H - Hate your cooking
I/J - Never will forget that night
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - Always will remember the pep talks
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven't showered in a month
Y/Z - Am better off without you

11.What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship is ruined
Beer - you should stop picking your nose
Flavored water - I'm off to lead a new life as a nun
Soda - I will haunt you when I'm incarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Wine -Thanks for the Cocaine
Cider - I have a passionate interest for men
Juice - I love Oprah Winfrey
Mineral water - You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate - Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Diet Soda - You ruined my attempts at another world war
Other - I'm scratching my ass as you read this

12.To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm tingly sensations
Italy - Best of luck on the sex-change
England - Kiss my ass
Spain - Go drown yourself
China - You make me sick
Germany - Go milk a cow
Japan - Please don't hurt me
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia -You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Egypt - Good luck in jail
France - With tears of sadness

Now, FILL IT IN ..

I'm cold and hungry.

"Please sur may eh have anuthur?"
What movie is that off of?

So are you in the Christmas spirit? Are you done shopping? The lord knows I'm NOT!
I don't even have a tree yet! I will purchase on on Saturday, that is my vow, I think.

There are a couple new recipes I want to try out, and they are all for sweets and deserts!
Those are my favorite kind.

Oh, and I made stuffed pork chops with stuffing and broccoli and cauliflower! It was a good meal, and it deserved to be on the cover of some magazine. It was pretty to look at!

Have you ever made anything like that? It's too pretty you don't want to eat it?
One time, I made a pie for July 4th. This sucker was awesome! It was a mixed berry pie, but I separated all the berries into red and blue portions.

I made a flag, it was awesome. And I was so proud.
No one touched it. It sat on the counter, then the fridge and eventually grew mold. Then it was TOSSED! I was so mad. I never made anything like it again.

Now to the topic on hand, well at least at the top of my post.
I'm cold (it's a whopping 4 degrees out) and I'm hungry (my only meal will be dinner tonight. I never bring lunch and I don't get up early enough to eat breakfast)

I suck and the food chain hates me.

Moving along.

Have you ever thought to yourself "Is this all there is?"

I find myself thinking that sometimes. And I don't have an answer. I guess things would be different if I was thrown into a different situation, but then again you never know.

If you have thought this yourself. What would you do differently? What do you wish for?

For me, all I've ever wanted in life were two things. Two very very simple things, but for some reason that eludes me. Those two things are the hardest to achieve. What gives?

You know what would make me feel better? Something simple, like winning the lottery. Come on, that happens to people all the time right?? RIGHT?

Wiped Out!

Ugh, have you ever been mentally and physically exhausted? Yeah I'm there.

And the thought of Christmas shopping, decorating, baking doesn't help. Makes me want to hide under the covers.

I just can't seem to kick the feeling of being tired.

Totally Necessary

I was having Random thoughts the other morning, last night and again this morning re: Christmas shopping.

I've decided to get people things that are only necessary.
Then I decided to go one further and ask for things that are only necessary for myself.
I want to de-clutter my life, and my house. Who really needs all those things that just are, they really don't have a purpose do they?

Well I started thinking what to buy people, what they really needed and what was really necessary to them.
Does my Sister REALLY need another pair of shoes?
Does my Dad REALLY care if he gets more socks?
Does my Mom REALLY need this or that?

Then I started thinking about myself... (Yeah it happens occasionally)
What do I need that is totally necessary. I tried, I mean I really tried to think of only necessary things and here is what my logic is:
Well, it's TOTALLY NECESSARY for me to have that new camera. I might DIE without it.
Then I also realized, it's TOTALLY NECESSARY for me to get a new coaching bag. I might PERISH without it.
BUT, what about that north face vest, and shoes? I might FREEZE and DIE without them.

So, as you can see. I can't really split the difference from what is necessary and what I just want.
So why should I expect those around me to do the same thing? It's not fair of me to do that and really I'm a very fair and understanding person. Everyone wants what they think is TOTALLY NECESSARY for themselves and where they are in life..... well kinda.

Oh well, I can always try to convince myself again next year.

Pecan Pie, Turnip Gratin.

Sounds like I need to invest in some bigger jeans.

I was cruising around yesterday on the Pioneer Woman's website and found these two gems.
They are very simple recipes (who doesn't love simple) and look really really good.
Seriously my mouth started watering just looking at the pictures.

Thanksgiving is right around the corner and I thought to myself.
Self: "You should make those for Thanksgiving, I'm sure they will be good. But it will be a nice change up to the usual fixin's"

So there you have it folks. I have 2 meals out of 54.2 planned out! Not bad right?

I only have lets see 5 pies or more to make. I'm the designated pie maker in our family.
I use to relish in that title, but now as I'm older and wiser.
I view it for what it really is.... a big pain in the butt.

Oh dear. I know how you feel.

This past weekend the Volleyball team I've been coaching headed off to the Divisional Tournament.

We went in hope full and fully confident we would do well and continue on to state. (This team I feel, could have went to state and competed just fine with the other teams)

As most of you know, tournament time is a crazy time. Some teams are tournament teams, some are not.
We played well during our tournaments in the past. Either taking first or second at all the tournaments we had participated in.

This however evidently had to come to an end.
All high school tournaments are double elimination. (Keep this in mind)

Our first game was on Thursday and we played North Star.
We won in 5 games. They played well, and fought for that win.

The next game we had was Geraldine. Geraldine is in our district and we had played them before and had beaten them 2 other times.
We played them on Friday, and we lost to Geraldine.
I'm not sure why? I believe that was the worst game of volleyball those girls had ever played.

It's okay though, we are still in this. We just have to come back up from the bottom. Totally possible!

On Saturday we had to play North Star, again.
We beat them in 3. North Star is out, and get to stay.

Our next game was then at 1:00 against Simms Tigers, then we would have another shot at Geraldine at 4:00. Then we would be back in the championship game.

1:00 rolls around and we play Simms. The first two games the girls played scared and safe. This technique NEVER works. We lost the first two games.
That third game, they came out and really played. And they beat Simms, things were looking up and we were gaining hope again.
Then, the fourth game was over before I knew it.
I hate to say this, but some of the girls just flat out quit.
Some were tired, and some were just young.
All in all. We lost to Simms in 4 games.
We were out. No more.

This all brought me back to that feeling I had my senior year in volleyball when we lost out in District's. You feel so sad, so many what ifs. You wonder why things happened they way they did, but ultimately you really had no control. And that feeling is the worst one ever.

Man oh Man, did we have some tears.
I didn't know how to handle them. I gave pat's on the back, good job's. But there is nothing you can say to make those girls feel better. Especially the seniors.

I just quietly stood there with them.
I was thinking the entire time. "Oh dear, I know exactly how you feel."

I wanted to cry with them and for them, but it wouldn't have helped. What was done is done.
They will all move on. Some will forget, and some won't. (I know I never did)

I don't think there is anything to say that will "help", or be "the right thing."
That has been the hardest part of coaching to date.
But I was there, standing with them, understanding that feeling.
I think that is the best thing I could have done.

When it's windy make sure you have a hold of your hat

WHEW!
Yesterday, I was seriously like super lady.

I went to work for a couple hours, got off early due to Veterans Day.
Ran to Great Falls for Groceries. (Fastest trip ever in Walmart, I swear)

Made it back in time for volleyball practice.

Went home and unloaded the groceries, and made dinner.

I should get a medal or something. Even a thank you would suffice.
Anyways, that's neither here nor there.

I made Beans and Corn Bread. (Beans.... ew)Ryan likes that type of stuff.
But it smelled good. It was a thick soupy type meal with beans and bacon.
And the corn bread. (that's what I ate for dinner, but it was really good.)

I'll post recipes later... aka when I remember to bring the recipes with me!

Oh Shit.

Well, I did it. I took the big commitment.

It's been a BIG day for me...

What a minute? What big commitment am I talking about?


well, I am now the new proud owner of auto insurance.
oh shit.

The free quote I got was great. But did you know in the state of Montana if you are married, you can't not put your spouse's name on the policy.
oh shit.

Did you know when you give them your vehicle registration number.... chances are that free quote price will GO UP???
OH SHIT.

Yeah, it happened, it sucks. Not a damn thing I can do about it now.

Oh well, at least if anything happens, anything at all that vehicle is covered through and through.

And the guy who was helping me said in a very chipper voice. "Welcome to Geico, have a great weekend!"

"Oh yeah, you too."

They are probably on commission or something.

Thanks buddy. You just sealed the deal. I'll be eating Ramon Noodles for the next year or so.

So much for getting a great price on insurance.
In the end they always stick it to you don't they.

Yeah, no shit.

Random Meanings and vows

Okay, this post is for one purpose and one purpose only.
As you may or may not be able to tell, I've been spring cleaning in a sense. Getting ready to have some time off and make my way back to the kitchen that I hardly even know anymore.

(She must think I hate her, I go in there very rarely, I always leave a mess and almost never clean it up anymore. What happened? I got busy....well actually I got a life.)
*sigh*
I remember the days when I would whip up an Amazing desert or dinner, or snack. Then Promptly I would clean and scrub and have my dear beloved red kitchen gleaming from mixing bowl to turkey baster. Sadly those days haven't been since 5 month's or longer.

But I'm taking a vow to change that right.....now.

I, TEENIE SOLEMNLY VOW, TO MAKE TIME FOR MY ONCE BELOVED KITCHEN AND LET MY CREATIVITY FLOW ONCE AGAIN, IN THE HOPES OF CREATING FOOD MASTER PIECES ONCE MORE.

ALSO, I VOW TO TAKE MORE TIME FOR MYSELF AND THE THINGS I ENJOY, THE THINGS THAT BRING SIMPLE PLEASURE'S TO MY LIFE. PHOTOGRAPHY, CRAFTS, READING, ETC.


If you are thinking about giving this a try yourself, Please join me!
Take a look at all the new links I've added, I'm sure you'll get lost in their wonderful goodness just like I did.

Wish me luck.

Officially fed up.

That's it. That is it. I've had it.
No More being nice. No more being polite.

State Farm: Please get off your ass and give me a damn settlement payment.

Farmers State Bank: Please get off your ass and get my note paid off. They need my information, and I've given you permission, so release everything already.
I refuse to give out any more money to you. You suck and it's over. Finished, no more. Nada Enchilada. I'm taking my money and business else where.

ERRRRR, this is absolutely ridiculous.
It has been long enough. I'm tired and I want this done.

WHY DO PEOPLE DRAG THEIR FEET?
Keep it up, and I'll cut your damn feet off. Then what will you do?

Oh crap.

The election is over. I'm relived, I don't have to listen to another stupid campaign... Thank GOD!

But now that it's over, I'm really really worried.
What will happen to our economy? What will the future bring?

Oh Crap. I can't help but think we are in for some trouble.

November 4, 2008

Yup, that's right! It's that time again.

It's the day to vote. It's the day to use your voice.

I'm happy to say, I will be exercising my right to vote today. (for the first time ever... I know I know. I should have registered a long time ago)

But I'm here and ready now and that counts for something right? right!

I'm taking part in a very important election, as you all well know. And you all better get off your butts today and vote. Our very economy relies on it!

Go, go now! GO VOTE!

Holy Moly!

I'm in Denial. THIS ISN'T HAPPENING ALREADY.
It's November 3rd ALREADY??
Fall Back Time has come and gone.
There was a commercial for Christmas movies ALREADY.
60 days until Christmas??
WHAT?

Where did the time go? What happened to my life?
I remember some summer and I remember the last couple weeks.

What the heck happened in between?

It's a blur.
I need help.
Or a memory.

See why I have to write things down, or else I forget it. Like it never happened.

Happy Halloween!

Yay, for Halloween falling on a Friday!! WOOHOO!!
However, I do not believe I will be enjoying the festivities. I fear I'm too old and if I knock on a door asking for candy while being dressed up. The poor soul will think I'm crazy and have me carted off to a crazy institution!

So instead, I decided to celebrate Halloween tonight, with a big glass of wine and a bowl of chocolates! The chocolates of course have a duel purpose, to give away if we have any trick or treator's and for myself. I need to eat something! It's never a good idea to drink on an empty stomach. (I learned that in college)

And, I just decided right here and now, I will by a pumpkin today at the grocery store and I'll carve it. I'm telling you I'm still a kid at heart. Growing up is for the birds.

I think it will be a good night. As long as I'm not drunk while carving the pumpkin. Can you imagine it... "Mommy why is that pumpkin so bloody?"
"Well sonny, I think the crazy bat who carved it is completely sodded!"

HEY.... For Halloween I'll be that crazy drunk lady. PERFECT!!
I'm such a smarty pants!

I hope everyone has a very safe, fun and Happy Halloween!!!

What A Weekend!

Have you ever had a weekend that felt like a short lifetime?
Well, that is exactly how mine felt. I breaks into 3 parts.

Part 1: Middle School Volleyball Tournaments

We had to play Friday after school, which they won! Then we had to play again on Saturday... ALL DAY! Those girls worked their little butts off! But it was worth it because they took first place! I have to say, I was so proud of them. It was really cool for me because I began to see some of the things click into place.
You know the things, I would teach during practice and they just didn't get it or see what I was saying. Well there were some girls who, just clicked and began to understand what I had been talking about all those times in practice.
Anyways, it was a long fun day, and they ended up winning and they deserved it. It was fun to watch them grow as a team.

Part 2: First Day of Hunting Season

Yup, opening day. Ryan and I went out early in the morning looking for elk. We both have cow tags for our area.
We sat out in the cold, for oh about 2 1/2 hours. I was cold, very cold and getting crabby. I couldn't feel my toes or my fingers and I was only aware I had a nose due to all the snot that had decided to turn to water and run down my face.

We didn't see any elk close enough for us to shoot at, so we decided to go home get a nap and go out again later that afternoon.
We get home, I don't nap I veg on the couch and watch TV. Ryan starts a fire, and finally I begin to feel my fingers and toes, and it sucks. They hurt and they are cold still! (You all know that feeling, the ow tingling)

Right when I get all warmed up, imagine that! It's time to go back outside.
We sit in one area for about 3 hours then get tired and call it a day. On the way home we decide to just drive down the road to see if we run into anything.

Wouldn't you know it, we see a pretty decent buck jump up and take off running. So we of course follow it. We go through the gate drive a ways, jump out of the pickup and jump over the fence to follow the buck.
Then, I look up and what do I see standing on the other side of the coulee? Why cow elk of course!
So I sit down and shoot.
Ryan, doesn't see them at first, but turns to look at what I just shot at. See's them. So we are now both sitting in the middle of the pasture shooting at this cow elk.
We both hit her, but his gun has a harder hit (being as it's bigger) and down she goes.
By now, we have an audience on the side of the road.
I feel like I belong in the circus.

Part 3: Cleaning and Hanging the Elk

Cleaning the elk really wasn't that bad, Ryan drove the truck right to her and we drug her to the top of the hill on a flat area. Then Ryan cleaned her out and we loaded her. This all was fairly easy, especially since it's just the two of us and the elk.

Then comes the hanging part, this took forever and just was a nightmare to keep it short.
In a nutshell, we tried to hang her several times, with no success. Picture me trying to lift a dead weight elk. It's heavy, awkward and did I say Heavy?
Well, I couldn't pick the dang thing up very high, this of course was frustrating to Ryan.
I'm sure you all know, it doesn't make the situation better when people get mad. Well for some reason that little tidbit went out the window for the time being.

Just picture this. Ryan and I trying to hang the elk, no success. We get mad, things are said out of frustration. So me being mad, cold and now tired go sit in the truck.
Finally Ryan gives up on me, and just hangs her with the tractor. Probably what should have been done from the beginning!

Will we never learn?

404 days

Ryan and I have been married for 404 days. Gosh that feels like a lifetime.
I feel like it was just the other day we were enjoying our wedding and our honeymoon.

It's crazy how time goes by so fast, and already so much has happened in such little time. And we still feel the same way about each other. Of course we are going to fight and have fought, but I'm proud to say we have worked through it and come out together.

For the first year, it was new and weird and hard work. All of a sudden the little things that normally don't matter are a big deal and if you fight you can't just walk away anymore. We both had so much more invested in this. I still can't believe we are working on 2 years now.

Don't get me wrong, it wasn't easy, there were days I'm sure he was plotting a way to run me over and make it look like an accident. And you better believe I thought about bashing him on the head with a pan... but we didn't and we are both healthy, happy and married!

To make this post 10 times better, why not reminisce with some pictures? Here are a few from our wedding day, and some from our honeymoon.

Settled

It's official!
I just finished settling with the insurance re: my truck.
I'm both happy and sad.
Happy: Because FINALLY this is over, it took forever. But I'm happy things are done, and both parties were happy.
Sad: My truck being totalled will be taken from me and placed in the hands of a cold uncaring dump site. Poor truck, the years we had together were good and I will miss you with your glorious stick shift. (Maybe I can take that part out and keep it...)

Thank goodness, the person I spoke with while figuring out numbers and finally settling was very nice, and a REAL person. I hate when people get huffy with you and don't listen to your questions, that frustrates me beyond coming back and I just get mad and dig my feet in.
So basically, I guess the insurance company got off lucky right? Rather than have to face the wrath of myself. (I like to think I'm a big deal)

Well now for the paperwork.
( I don't want to think about all the tree's I've gone through this month)
Then my old note will get paid off, then I can add the rest as a down payment on the other vehicle.

I feel like there really is light at the end of this tunnel. Unfortunately at the end of the tunnel I have to pay to license and insure a whole new vehicle. I suppose though beggar's can't be chooser's right?

Things are beginning to look up! Dare I say it.... is my streak of bad luck over?

Just to be safe I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

Christmas Wish List's ALREADY??

This morning all in all was wonderful. Why....? I got to sleep in until 7:15 am!! WHOOHOOO!
No morning practice today, aahhh I love it when I get to sleep longer then 4-5 hours a night!


Anyways, back to the topic on hand.
While drinking my coffee and willing my brain and body to begin it's normal activity and functions. Ryan begins a conversation with me and this is how it starts:
Ryan: "What do you want for Christmas?"
Me: "I don't know, I haven't really thought about it."
(Now I'm creating in my mind MY wish list for Christmas, so far I have 4-5 really good things!)
Ryan: "Oh, well I was thinking of something I wanted for Christmas."
AHH-HAAA the "catch 22"
Me: I give him a look like okay, let's here it. "Oh, what would that be?"
Ryan: "Well, I need another pair of good riding boots."
Ryan: "And I was thinking you do too, so we could get each other new boots!"
(He was so proud of this thinking ahead, but I quickly shot down his present for me. In a nice way, I'm not that mean.)
Me: "I have boots, I don't need anymore" (I know you are all shocked I said no, but just wait)
Ryan: "Well what do you want?"
Me: "A North Face Vest!"
Ryan: "NO, I'm not buying you another vest, you have like 10 already."
(He sits there and thinks for a sec, then adds)
Ryan: "Okay, then I want 2 wool rich sweaters that are pull over but have a little zippy on them"
Me: "Um, what? You just said you wanted boots, you can't change your mind."
Ryan: "Well that was before, and now I realize I want the sweaters"
(Please note, the sweaters Ryan has decided to now want, are kinda well no, the are really expensive. There isn't any kinda about it!)
Me: "MMmm" "I'll think about it."
End of conversation!

I no know, I was sucked into a trick with Ryan. He tricked me into thinking about what I wanted, just so he could spill what he really wanted this year.
Dirty dirty move.
Please for the love of our credit, lets just get through Halloween and Thanksgiving. Then we can start thinking about Christmas!

BUT.....
Now that I was thinking of what I wanted for Christmas.
Here is what I have come up with so far:
1. North Face Vest
2. New Camera (Nikon D 27 or 15 something I think...)
3. Coaching bag, to carry all my papers and notes and schedules
4. Gift cards so I can by myself some new jeans, I have holes in every pair now!
5. Tinted windows for the new pretty truck, and speakers and a remote control starter! (OH YEAH)

Dreaming of a Vacation

This morning while at my chiropractor appointment there was the most soothing music playing. It was the ocean, with violins playing in the background.
Let me explain how soothing the atmosphere really was....

I'm hooked up to the shock therapy thingy, laying on a bed with a HEATING PAD (I love that heating pad) and there is a massaging thing that works it's way up and down my back.
This is to loosen all my muscles before he adjusts my neck.
Everyday when I have an appointment I always look forward to the heaven of that little room with the heating pad, massaging table cause it's just awesome.
I now understand why some people get addicted to seeing their chiropractor or massage therapist.

Today this music was very soothing and it got me thinking. Me and Ryan just had our one year anniversary not too long ago. It would be nice if we could go back to Mexico for our second anniversary. I remember it like it was yesterday. The food, the drinks, the beach, the sun, the pools, and just Me and Ryan without anything to really care about! It was like being 5 again but with a drink in my hand... we didn't have to do anything.

I spent the days just laying on the beach or by the pool. Ahhhhh I think when I get rich and old enough to retire I will do it in Mexico. I just have to come up with a reason so Ryan will want to come too. Hmmm, they have great hunting? no.... It will never snow there? That would depress him. They have really good tequila? That could work.

Could you imagine, if I retired in Mexico, I'm sure my sister would come up with tons of excuses to come visit. And I would let her, because I'm sure I would be too lazy to get off my lounge chair and make my own drinks!

Before I die, I would like to do some traveling. The places I really want to go are the Caribbean, Tahiti, Australia, Italy, and Spain. I wonder how many places Ryan will refuse to go to. He really isn't a big fan of flying, he gets nervous and holds on so tight his knuckles are white. It's actually pretty funny to wittness.

That's it. I'm heading over to Expedia.com right now! Just to window shop though, because the vehicle we just randomly purchased has pushed my big travel plans back 130 years. I really need to win the lottery, I would start buying them if only they were in the budget...

Mucinex

I have smokers cough.
If you know me, you know I'm very adamant about NOT smoking.
But why do you ask, do I have smokers cough?

Well, let me explain in 3 easy explanations!

1. I caught a cold from my volleyball girls (I'm convinced they are trying to kill me through torturous colds)
2. In the process of being sick, I accumulated TONS and TONS of mucus crap in my lungs, throat, nose, etc. (I'm producing human lube.....EW, I just had a mental picture, I may vomit. Can you imagine if our world was forced to use mucus yellow lube? SICK SICK SICK)
3. I now have a cough, this cough sounds horrible. Every time I cough, breath or talk you can hear the wheezing and all that flem trying to make it's way out of my body. I have been like this for about a week now and I'm convinced people look at me and think: "Wow, she is so young, and she already has smoker's cough. I bet she regrets ever smoking in the first place." Oh, if they only knew.

The first thing I did this morning is went to the store and invested in Mucinex DM (you know those commercials, the little green guy who is human mucus living in your lungs and getting upset for being coughed out)
Hopefully this stuff saves me from this mucus hell. I fear I've already forgotten what it's like to have a full deep breath where you receive enough oxygen to suffice your bodily needs.

I do a gasping thing. Like a fish out of water with a bad cough who sounds like the next time it coughs a lung, or maybe a kidney will come out and land on the ground.

I have to get rid of this by next week on Sunday, hunting season starts and if I can't breathe I won't be a very effective hunter. The animals will be able to hear me coming, my wheezing will give me away every time!

Here is a quick story to explain. Yesterday Ryan and I went Coyote hunting, it's actually fun if you get coyotes to come in. Yesterday the only thing we called in were heifer cows, I'm sure they were thinking "What the hell are these two clowns doing?" It was funny and I tried to laugh, but ended up with a coughing attach. Anyways, while hunting you have to be quiet. Especially me, I married a full blown hunting addict, which is cool cause I like it too. But unlike my husband I can't suppress the urge to pee, cough, blow my nose, etc. This drives him crazy.
Just picture it. Ryan and I are sitting on the ground by the fence, the coyote call is going off. Then everything is quiet, we sit and wait to see any movement ready at any time to pull the trigger.

Then it happens, I can't help it, but I start coughing and coughing. Now I have crap in my mouth and I refuse to swallow it. So I spit it out, I'm not very good at this and do it like a little kid still. I make the spitting noise and most of the time I have some dribbled down my chin.
Once I'm finished with my coughing and spitting routine, I look over at my husband. And I get the look, you know that look where you think he's angry, but looks so funny you start laughing anyways. This of course starts me coughing again.
I'm sure you get the picture. It's no wonder the only thing to come in to us were cows.

The Joy's of Insurance Shopping...

Okay, so just a little overview so you are caught up with the happenings in what seems to be a badly written sitcom.

10.5.08 I was rear ended. Damage to my truck was major. I had a minor case of whiplash.

10.6.08 It's my birthday, whoohoo! I spend all day on the phone with the insurance companies...what fun. Let me tell you, my insurance company was not very helpful. (Which brings me to my story today!)

10.9.08 I go to the Chiropractor because I was getting swollen hands and my legs and arms were needle prick itchy. (the neck cracking experience I've had to endure was so weird. Have you heard your own bones cracking in your head?? Not a great sound)

Current Day 10.17.08
I find out they are going to total my truck. OK. Now I have to compromise on a price to settle on. Then I have to pay off the rest of my note, and buy a new vehicle.

So I do what every normal person will do, I begin calling around, getting prices. If you know me then you know, I always know what I want. And unfortunately for those around me, I'm stubborn and picky and as bratty as it sounds. I usually know me best and there fore get what I wanted from the beginning. Anyways, I digress.

I call Ryan and tell him the news. At first he is angry with me for my choice of a NEWER VEHICLE. My response to this was.... Oh I'm sorry, but it's my truck that was totalled, and we NEED 4 doors or I'll not be responsible for what happens.

5 minutes later I get a call from him. We ugh, we have an appointment to go look at some trucks today at 3:00 pm. (I knew he would understand! Threatening bodily harm will do that for you every time...hehehe)

We go to just *LOOK* and I had gotten some prices that were really great so I wanted to wait before we did anything. UM....yeah, did I say wait. Because before I knew it, we had found "THE ONE" and were wheeling and dealing, and signing here before I knew it.

Then this guy named Cliff (not his real name) was handing me the keys and saying CONGRATULATIONS!!!

What a minute, okay hold the phone. What the HELL just happened. We just bought a new F**KING truck! (Please note said truck is really pretty, and precisely what I wanted)
But wow the commitment, the payments, the insurance.... OH MY GOD THE INSURANCE!

Me and Ryan both wake up regretting what we had done last night. I seriously felt so guilty like I cheated on Ryan with a one night stand.... (of course that wouldn't happen but that's the regret I felt for splurging and buying such a wonderous, pretty truck)

We were quickly scrambling to figure out a way to undo what had been done.....but basically we are screwed! We are stuck with said pretty truck for a long long long long long long long long long long long.... really long time!

As you can imagine, I'm sitting here at work calling insurance companies to get quotes so we are all covered. These were my thoughts on this procedure (pre phone calls) Insurance shopping: sounds like fun, I like shopping, who doesn't like shopping! If anyone can shop it's ME! Piece of cake, I can have this done today I bet, then things will be Great! (yeah, I always think in run on sentences)

My thought about Insurance shopping post phone calls: Screw insurance, all I need is a gun! This would solve so many things in one stop!
First off, they ask so many questions, which my answer every time was "I don't know" or "I'm not sure" or even "What does that mean?" They should just tell you from the beginning. "Insurance shopping? If you are a beginner, just forget it! There is however, a nice pawn shop down the road with a few pistols for sale!"
Expensive now has a new meaning, and it's all because of one night without caution! Maybe I'll have caution tattooed somewhere on my body to remind me....NEVER AGAIN!

It is now 12:30 and I swear I have called every insurance company in town for a stinking auto quote. Ugh, I think I need a beer. Is it bad to crave a beer when it's only noon?

I would like to pretend that for just a day, insurance was an inexpensive thing everyone could afford. Why oh why do we do this to ourselves? I feel like beating my head off the wall!

Back to the drawing board I go....

I will leave you with one question.... well two actually!
Who do you have insurance with?
How is your insurance company?

First Blog Anxiety

So I'm sure there comes a time when you realize....jeez, I seem to be loosing touch with some friends and it kinda stinks.

So I decided to jump start this little treasure, to basically tell everyone what things that are going on in mine and Ryan's life at the time. This is also a place for me to come and get some things off my chest. Some of it may be funny, some may be sad. But I want to put it all out there! I will also try to remember my camera when I go places so I can add pictures, pictures are always fun!

With my first blog, I'm excited but at the same time stumped. What the heck to I write about, I have to break the ice here and it better be a good first impression because I only get one of those, I don't want to mess it up...

That being said, I have writers block. Please check back later, all this pressure and stress I can't do it today! Perhaps tomorrow, I think today will be dedicated to me making this blog spot really cool and somewhat pretty.